Urgh.

For real, I can't hide my feeling. I know it seems like I'm a stupid person for admit that I like you. What I have to do now is just let it be. What makes me feel so angry right now is I can't accept what comes to me. I know I can face this. But this problem seems so big for me to solve. Sometimes I feel want to punch in your face. I want to beat you until I am satisfied. I want to see you suffer. I want to stay away from you. I want to block your Fb account. (I'm pretty good in blocking other Fb account :)) I don't have any intention for doing these things. But, sometimes I want to be with you. I always waiting for you to turn on your Fb chat's box. I want to see a text from you. I know we got a lot of differences. It is not a gap or barrier for me. If you can't accept me, it's fine. But why can't I be your friend? Why can't I keep in touch with you? It's just like I meet a stranger that has a nice profile. I know my mistakes. I just want too many things. But it depends on you. I don't want to put the burden on you. I know you don't have any feeling towards me. I know it. I know we can't get along. I know I can't make you ROFL. I know I'm a lazy boy who loves to sleep all the time and have a weak self-motivation. I know I don't have anything to entertain you. I know I'm a person that have nothing special on your eyes. We were close in the back time. It just a short period and I feel it was a great moment for me. And now, it vanished. Great for you. I hate when you ignore me. This makes me feel want to torture you. I think I need a time to forget you. I'll seek another one. What you can conclude from here is I'm a jerk. Agree? :D