Urgh.

For real, I can't hide my feeling. I know it seems like I'm a stupid person for admit that I like you. What I have to do now is just let it be. What makes me feel so angry right now is I can't accept what comes to me. I know I can face this. But this problem seems so big for me to solve. Sometimes I feel want to punch in your face. I want to beat you until I am satisfied. I want to see you suffer. I want to stay away from you. I want to block your Fb account. (I'm pretty good in blocking other Fb account :)) I don't have any intention for doing these things. But, sometimes I want to be with you. I always waiting for you to turn on your Fb chat's box. I want to see a text from you. I know we got a lot of differences. It is not a gap or barrier for me. If you can't accept me, it's fine. But why can't I be your friend? Why can't I keep in touch with you? It's just like I meet a stranger that has a nice profile. I know my mistakes. I just want too many things. But it depends on you. I don't want to put the burden on you. I know you don't have any feeling towards me. I know it. I know we can't get along. I know I can't make you ROFL. I know I'm a lazy boy who loves to sleep all the time and have a weak self-motivation. I know I don't have anything to entertain you. I know I'm a person that have nothing special on your eyes. We were close in the back time. It just a short period and I feel it was a great moment for me. And now, it vanished. Great for you. I hate when you ignore me. This makes me feel want to torture you. I think I need a time to forget you. I'll seek another one. What you can conclude from here is I'm a jerk. Agree? :D

My Bro

=.= Everyone is about to leave. They talk about it. Everyday. I know I am Sarawakian but it doesn't mean I don't miss my home. I miss my brother who always annoy me when he wakes up every morning and makes a LOT OF ANNOYING SONG THAT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT THE FARTING IT MEANS.I will see him soon.Oh boy, I can't be patient waiting for your FARTING UPSR result.Let me laugh at you when you don't get FARTING 6As.Hey,I love my brother.It's good to have him around although I blocked his Facebook account.:D

Don't stop being yourself,brother.

When.

When I got bored,

When you didn't reply my text,

When I didn't have anything to do,

When I felt something will come,

When my hand hold the pencil,

When the paper was lying in front of me,

When my imagination came through,

When my hand moved around.

OH YEAH!

Oh boy,here it comes. Come to papa. Woohoo! >:D Oreo time!

I'm A Broken Bone

It's okay. No need for you to beg apologize from me. I know it will come. I'm ready for any changes. I've faced it many times before. Just that, my imagination will never comes true. I've imagined that I will have a good time with you before you go far away. I don't expect that this will come so fast. But, I have to take it. It's reality. Not my world. Dream is my world. Maybe there is another good thing for me. I don't have any regret or sad feelings. I just disappointed. Why we can't be friends? Is this the way friends end their story? Hurm. I wonder what do you feel right now. Anyway, it's okay. I'm just like a broken bone. Once broken, get stronger than before. :D

I'm a superbone! Yeah! \(^.^)/

9/10/11

Nothing special on this day. In 12 a.m. I slept early. I got a dream. I dreamed my block has won another game. I woke up in 11.30 a.m.. In the afternoon, KK2 does not has any dishes. I have to eat rendang with rice. I think it's just a calm day for me. The only special thing for today is when I call her. Thank you for answering my call. It makes me happy. :D

I'm sleeping.Please do not disturb.

It Comes Again!

Well, after a long time, my room is filled with joy. Looking at Amir, Ting Tong and Puye watching Adib playing his game makes me feel that they are biological brothers. I know it just for a few day but it makes me feel happy. Recently, Ting Tong, Yek, Puye, Amir, Iman and Ustaz come to this room. I love when they come. Watching Family Guys and play Call Of Duty together are enough to make me get a good sleep. In conclusion, my room now has been refilled with laugh and joy. Thanks, Allah. :)

Waiting.

I'm waiting in my room.

Waiting for your text.

Keep looking at my cell phone.

Lie on the bed.

Look at the fan spinning around.

Let the time goes by.

I keep on waiting.

Sending a few messages.

Patiently waiting for message icon.

Please,reply my message.

Hurm.

:(

Boomerang!

A day with boomerang. It was fun. Learn how to throw the boomerang. Yek,Safwan,Amir and me played at the field. Never played it before. Now I know how it feels. Try it.:D

Amir,Yek and Safwan.

The boomerang owner.

Boomerang comes from Australia.:O

I Want To

I WANT TO

I see you from a distance,

I want to call your name,

But,my voice stucks in my throat.

I see you are having fun,

I want to be a part of it,

But,my legs are cramp.

I see you are doing something great,

I want to do it with you,

But,my hands have been cuffed.

I do not see you today,

I do not want to think about you,

But,my heart forces me to do so.

Miss You

I really miss my old hair. I really love to have a long hair. But, every time I go back to my home, I will be ask to cut my hair. That is why I cut my hair earlier. I hate to cut my hair. I love my hair. Hair, please grow faster.

Almost create a new record.

Miss it so much!

Urgh...

Just keep waiting for this hair to grow.

It's Okay

I know it's my mistake. It's okay. No need for you to beg apologize from me. You are innocent. Right?

Yea!

Tadaa!Yea!Got new jersey!Really loving it!

Got my name on it!:D

The Best Test

Woo.DPI seniors and juniors are taking exam together.:D Love it.

I can see she from my seat. *I realized she sat there when she wanted to leave:(

I'm Trying

You know I really like you. Not from physical but entirely. Now, I trying to lower my expectation towards you. I don't want to get frustrated in the future. It's hard to meet people like you. I think that's all I want to say for today. Thank you. :)

Reloaded!

A food supply has been reloaded.Yeah.No more food salvation! Thank you

for this oreo. Love it!

Thanks!

Thank you for this. I love it. I'll keep it. First meet, first present. Thank you so much.

Cigarette

You just like a cigarette. When the first time I see you, I want to get you. You look so attractive. I want to bring you anywhere. Then, I want to know you better. I learn how to smoke. I know it is such a funny moment when I am coughing at the first time. I force myself to smoke. I feel that my head is turning around. After that, I stop. I look at you back. I know smoking is not a need for me. But I want to be with you all the time. So, I force myself to be a smoker. Start from that moment, I need you all the time. I can't live without you. My day will be incomplete. No one

can stop me from getting you. Even though my age is not suitable to be a smoker, I will try to

get you. I will waste my money on you. I will sacrifice everything that I have if I have to.

I will smoke in everything what I do. I will make it is a MUST thing to do.

You just like a nicotine. A smoker only want to get nicotine and not the other substances. That means I want you ONLY.

The conclusion is I am not a smoker but I know what does it feel to be a smoker. It's just like my addiction to you. So, I'm addicted to you.:)

Leave Me Alone

Hello guys. There is only one thing that I want you do. Stop bothering me. Leave me alone. I love for being alone in this room. I want to sleep without interruption. Let me dream for a long time. Give me a break. I hate to face the reality. Life = bitter, dream = sweet. I can create my own world in my dream. I don't have to fight with the others because I'm the planner of the dream. I can be happy when I can do what I want. If I have been given a chance to make wish, I wish I can sleep forever. I will see my friends and family in my dream. I will build a happy small house that can make me feel warm with the happiness in the atmosphere. I can meet with the love one. I can swim in the sea without taking an oxygen. I can fly in the sky from dawn till late night. I can laugh everyday with my friends. I can have a thousand of friendly friend. I can turn every imagination that I want becomes true. So, let me sleep tight. Lock the door. And get off from this room. :)

I'm Happy With It

I know this is the best stage that suitables for us. I know I can't take to the next level. I will accept it. Thank you for introducing yourself. Now I know a bit about you. From stranger to friend. Now I know there is a big gap that makes us can't be more than friend. I want it but I know it would not stay for a long period. I'm appreciate it. It helps me to not look back. Once more, thank you so much.

Thank you.

I Know That

Yeah,

I know who I am,

I know that I can't get everything or anyone that I like,

I admit it,

I know it since I was a child,

I know I'll never change,

I know it is hard to change,

I know that I like you,

I know that I give too much hope on you,

I know that I'll never get you,

I know that I don't know who you really are,

I know there is a big gap between us,

I know that I only can be a stalker,

I know that I only can be a secret admire,

I know this feeling hurts me so much,

I know that you will read this,

I know that you will ignore me,

I know that I'm hoping for a miracle,

I know that miracle comes only once,

I know that I always think about you,

I know that my presence doesn't give any changes to you,

I know that I'll be like this forever.

I hope you will read this and give me some chances to get know you better because I really like you. Thank you.

My Hair

Yeah.New hair,new life. People gives many reaction to me. Some of them said it nice and others gave a negative comment. I respect what they said to me. Just that I want they to know that it is hard for me to get a long hair. I can't have a long hair because my father always ask me to cut it. He wants me to be a person with a good looking. Yes. I feel the difference. People always stare at my hair and I feel uncomfortable. =.= What the fish? I can't move my body around when they stare at me like that. huh... Such a tough day for a people who just got a new hair style. Only one thing that I am afraid of right now. I don't want to be call by lecturer. I don't want to answer so many questions. It will give me a headache. And I hate it. I'll try to run from them. Ehehehe.

New Hair

Having a new hair gives a lot implication to me. Ahaha. :) Woa man. Keep off your eyes from my hair. You make me feel guilty for having a new haircut. I did not do anything that can harm you and it is none of your business. I know it attracts your eyes because it is obviously a mohawk style. I'll try to run away from you if it ANNOYS you. That's all from me. TQ. :)

Glad To See

Woa. I'm glad to see you happy. Just keep on smiling and have fun while you can. Life is short. Never waste it. I know my presence doesn't give any changes to your life. What I can do is just become a spectator. I never forget about you. I wish you will have a better life. Never look back. Just keep going with your own lifestyle. I wish I could be an important man in your life. Yes, I know it will never comes true. So, have fun. Love you always.

You know my smile.You ignore me till now.I hope my smile can make you smile just like old times.

Dream(2)-18.9.2011

Leo

Guest what, Leo will continue his study. I'm proud of him. Give him a big clap. He will enter PTPL in Samarahan, Kuching. I hope he will continue his interest in graphic design until he dies. Ehek. :)

Go Leo~ I will never give up on you. I know you can. Keep your momentum.

Never forget my best friend.

Stop For A While

Sometimes, I have to rest in my journey. Sit down on the earth. Take a deep breath to my lung so that my aveolius can absorb every oxygen in the air. Lay down my body on the green grass and let my body warm when sunshine comes to me. Look at the moving cloud. Give a moment for the wind crush on my skin.Let my imagination flies further. I take a time to look back what I've done and what I will do. Some of it will make me smile and some of it will turn my face red. When I think it is enough for me to glance back, I will take the deepest breath and close my eyes. Sleep...

Band That I Love

COLDPLAY

I really love this band. Their songs are great and awesome. It can make me stop for a while and make my own imagination. I can feel that I am exist in that song. I really want to try playing guitar with their song. Sadly, I do not know how to play a guitar.:( But, I can enjoy with my imagination. It is better than playing guitar. Isn't it? I want you to try to listen a song that entitled Til Kingdom Come. In my imagination, it tells about a man who enjoys everything in his kingdom. He enjoys riding a bicycle, live in the house, having a neighbor, landscape in his place and etc. My imagination is hard to express in words. Sorry.:( ehehehe. So,how about you?Try it out and tell what is your imagination. Ehek.:) Lalalalalaa~

Dream-16.9.2011

I just got a happy dream. I dreamed my best friend, Leo became a student in a school. I could not hold my tears at that time. I hope this will be a good clue for me. People always said that dream gives clue to the future. So, I will wait for it.

Never Regret

I tought I made a mistake. A mistake that I will regret forever. But, now it changes. I love what I chose. Such a great choice. I am enjoying every second of my life with my choice. Thanks to Allah for giving me such a great life to me. Tests and joys will come and I am ready for it. Here I go. Never stare back again. Never regret!

Forever

Everyone wants something that they like stay forever. Bad news for them is it will occur in heaven. Sorry fellas. I also want to keep everything until I die. In our reality life, things will come and go. So, never expect to have something forever. Ehehehe. :)

Sleep

I love to sleep. There are many reasons behind it.

1.I do not want to interrupt other people.When I sleep, I will be in silent mode.

2.I love to dream. Dream makes me feel want to go on my life. Dream is a great thing for me. Sleep without a dream is meaningless.

3.Time goes fast when I sleep.

4.My room is too comfort. I cannot avoid it and I will sleep even though I have been sleeping for a long time.

5.It makes me happy. There is no other thing that can make me smile widely than sleep.

I think my sleep will be great if I have a SLEEPING PARTNER.And of course the sleeping partner should be a WOMAN that I love. I want to see somebody beside me when I wake up. :) So, do you love to sleep?

Around The Corner

Soon,I will be a student again.But not in school anymore.It is university.Located in Bintulu.I really don't mind where it is located.Some peoples are really picky with the location of their university or college for unreasonable reason.About my future university,I never think it will be my university.Same goes to the course that i got.Fishery?Never comes in my mind.Well,I have to pick it or leave it.So,I decided to pick it.Plus,ocean is my favourite place.Who knows I will work in the ocean.Nevertheless,I still interested with the course.

There are few days left before I go to Universiti Putra Malaysia(UPM).So,I made a new intersting routine.This is my new routine and take a look.:

11.00 a.m:Wake up and straight to Facebook.

12.00 a.m:Take a bath.

13.00 p.m:Watching television.

17.00 p.m:Play futsal.

18.50 p.m:Take a bath.

19.00 p.m:Watching television.

21.00 p.m:Facebook and skype time.

03.00 am:Sleep.

Wow.That's a great routine for people who think they got a few days to enjoy.:)